Beaker came to pick me up. He didn’t open my car door, which is not necessarily a deal breaker as boys can be trained in that aspect, but still, it would have been an added bonus. The reason he picked me up was bc he had to drive anyway, and also to prevent me from having to walk very far since on our last meeting, I more or less walked forever since I had parked so far.
I greeted him at the door while C peeked out the window, trying to sneak a look. We drove to Amberjack for sushi, but being that it was sunday night in a residential neighborhood, we actually had a pretty hard time finding parking. When we did park, it was like 6 blocks away, on the top of the highest hill ever–and I was wearing heels. We joked that I should have just walked from my place.
Conversation was pretty good. Relaxed. It started off a little slow and I maybe was a little more sarcastic than I usually am with him (although poor Dolby bears the brunt of it), but I think we warmed up to one another. We were laughing and joking and for the most part, I have fun talking to him. I think its bc he always challenges me or what I say, always teases me. That is both rare, and something I find attractive. So its weird. On the one hand, I don’t really find that Im very physically attracted to him, but on the other hand, I really like his personality. 8 out of 10 thus far.
After dinner, he asked me if I wanted to get drinks–so back to 24th street at the same bar where I first met Dolby. Kind of weird, but where else do you go in Noe on a Sun night. I think we were a lot more comfortable with each other and I was feeling more of a chemistry. Maybe it was the alcohol (only 1 drink all night, thank you very much) or the candlelit setting…whatever it was, I def felt there were moments of connection. That, and we ended up having fairly deep (non sarcastic) discussions about past relationships, family, etc.
However, unlike the last time we met, he didn’t really seem to physically flirt with me. He didnt reach out to touch my leg or anything like that.
There was one point during the date where I was picking a drink for him. I told him I wanted to order him a watermelon drink and then I said, “no, wait, you don’t like watermelon, do you?” The moment I said it, I was like fuck. That was Dolby who didnt like watermelon flavored crap, not him. He looked at me like, “Uh, no, maybe that was one of the other dates you went on.” He totally called my bluff. I totally had been doing that the whole night–the, “did we talk about this already” thing as I have just had a whirlwind week and I have talked about a multitude of things with so many different people–not just guys Ive gone out with. I tried to explain to him that I bought my tickets for nyc this week and that I have had the same conversation with like 20 different people–and I thought for sure he was one of those people (as far as this topic is concerned, I’m still convinced I’m correct). But anyway, it was an oh shit moment for me. He didn’t seem like he was NOT ok with it, but he was definitely calling me on it.
At any rate, whenenver I’m out with someone, I try to guage how things are going by their body language. From what I could tell, we had our bodies turned toward one another. We were making eye contact…etc etc etc…everything seemed pretty good.
which is why it was confusing when he dropped me off that he didn’t walk me to the door, and didnt really even mention meeting again. it was kind of like, “i had a good time.” yeah me too. Then I looked at him and started laughing. And he said, “what?” I said, “oh…uh…nothing, its just awkward…so I guess I’ll talk to you later?” And he just said bye. And I said bye. And then he watched me as I went inside…and that was kind of it.
WEIRD.
I have NO idea wtf is going through his mind. The Canadian speculates that he second-guessed himself and just fucked up teh situation. He predicts that he will email me today. Augh. I just kind of walked away feeling really confused. I mean, if all we are is friends, Im not opposed to it, but come on. COME ON.
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I started writing this before lunch. Just got back from getting lunch and guess who I ran into outside? THE FRAT BOY FROM MY PRESENTATION CLASS. holy crap, I mean speak of the devil. And i thought he was going to Europe for 2 months!!! God!!! I dont think he really saw me bc he was talking to some other people and barely looked up, and I couldnt really say his name bc I was kind of in mid-sentence too, but seriously, how coincidental is that?
