top of the mark
NG came and left. We had fun, we always do. I still am not all that much clearer on what I feel or what I want. I keep telling myself that this is what *dating* is for, but at the same time, I also am feeling overwhelmed by how non-datey it already feels. He asked me if I can see us as bf/gf, and I said, how can I know that right now? And I said, do you really think its fair to date or be bf/gf if we are doing it long distance? Because I don’t.
incanto
I’m more confused then ever, it seems. And it always seems to happen after he visits, which I dont understand. Because shouldnt the visits shed light on things one way or the other? Or is it impossible to “casually date” from 3,000 miles away.
sigh.
