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    the brilliant dance

    So this is odd,
    The painful realization
    That has all gone wrong.
    And nobody cares at all,
    And nobody cares at all.

    So you buried
    All your lover’s clothes
    And burned the letters lover wrote,
    But it doesn’t make it any better.
    Does it make it any better?
    And the plaster dented from your fist
    In the hall where you had your first Kiss
    Reminds you that the memories will Fade.

    So this is strange,
    Our sidestepping has
    Come to be a brilliant dance
    Where nobody leads at all,
    Where nobody leads at all.

    And the picture frames are facing down
    and the ringing from this empty sound
    Is deafening and keeping you from sleep.
    And breathing is a foreign task
    and thinking is just too much to ask
    And you’re measuring your
    Minutes by a clock that’s blinking Eights.

    This is incredible.
    Starving, insatiable,
    yes, this is love for the first time.
    Well you’d like to think
    That you were invincible.
    Yeah, well weren’t we all once Before
    We felt loss for the first time?
    Well this is the last time.

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    omg

    check out this entry from a while back: am i a fucking psychic or what??? (im referring to the dream part–the stuff in italics)…

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    sigh

    came to the (sad) realization last night that unless scb decides on his own to be with me, ill never be satisfied with the type of communication we’ve been having. in…

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    very interesting

    The Ex admitted he loves me. (only took him 3 yrs?) Love in the present sense. although i dont think he meant like that. He also told me he and his…

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    winding down

    scb started packing his things this morning. he didnt make it very far before he started crying. we kept repeating the same process: sort objects into piles. cry. lay down on…

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    cruel cruel twist of fate

    scb told me he loved me–twice. when i asked him why he never said it before, he responded, “b/c you never said it to me.” How am i gonna tell him…

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    this is us operating as friends

    scb called me after work today to tell me that he thinks he made the wrong decision and that he wants out. he wants out of the job. out of the…