The Ex admitted he loves me. (only took him 3 yrs?) Love in the present sense. although i dont think he meant like that. He also told me he and his girl have been broken up for a while. And how fucked up is life that a yr ago i would have jumped at the chance to take advantage of this…but now i just dont care. I feel a deep friendship w/him, that is all. he knows things about me most people don’t. He and I have a lot of fun together. Hes my perfect hiking partner. Hes always got my back. but thats it. for now anyway. that little glimmer of hope i once had is completely dim.
but life is surprising, and ill always attest to that.
even in friendships, or maybe especially so. lots of people disappoint me. but then there are many who surprise me.
